Pillow Time : Answering your Questions ♥

 So, last week I asked you guys to ask me questions about anything. And I honestly forgot to blog about it the following day. Sorry! :) Now, I will answer those 3 questions I got from some of my awesome friendsies.

Before that though, I just want to answer a question I got last night from FB about my 500 pesos makeup challenge. I was asked what mascara I used. If you guys noticed or remember, I skipped out on a mascara on the challenge. One, because I do not have enough budget already to buy any mascara. And second because, not to brag or whatever, I am pretty blessed with a pretty long and somewhat thick lashes. It actually runs in the blood. So, the answer the question. I didn't use any mascara. If you want to believe it or not, it is up to you. :)

 MOVING ON! I will be posting the QUESTION and then the ANSWER next to that. :)

Hi Iya! :) Thank you for your question!

 And I just want to say, you are really pretty! SUPER! :) 

If I could travel back in time and talk to my 13 year old self, I would tell her to not hurry to grow up. Enjoy the things you have. And do not take things and people around you for granted.   ♥

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Hi there Haley! :) Thanks for the birthday greeting! 

It is so nice to meet people from different countries that loves the things you love also. :)

And 10 years ago, I believe I was in 3rd Grade. And back then, I have a lot of different goals/dreams. I wanted to be a cashier. :) I just think its super cool! I also wanted to be a teacher because back then all the teachers in our school get TONS of gifts every Christmas. :P 

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Hi baby sister, Iya! :) Thanks you for the greetings and also for the question. 

Iya reminds me a lot of myself when I was younger. I admire her for being a strong woman. :)

I also love and enjoy cooking. I don't know a lot yet but I really am into cooking pasta. 

I am not into sports or anything, my life is a bit boring actually. :P I love eating as much as I love cooking. I also love watching movies, even the old ones. And that's it. I am pretty shallow. I enjoy the smallest things. 

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Pillow Time: How to Move On?! + Sweet Mail

Hi ladies (and gents...if ever!) I know I haven't posted a "proper" pillow time last week. I am just a bit busy with everything. But today, I got this sweet little email from a follower of mine. It was overwhelming cause it is actually the first mail that I got that isn't a hate mail. So tonight, I will feature that on this Pillow Time. :)

This is the email I got. 

I covered the information about her cause she wanted to keep it private. And I respect that! So, you know who you are! ;)

Girl, thank you so much for your sweet words. Those things are what keeps me going despite of all the hates that this "blogging" world has to offer. I am so glad that you can see my dedication and passion on what I am doing. And my readers, are my friends. I don't treat anybody as just a member or anything. I know the feeling when you're just beginner. I know when it feels like no one appreciates you and no one is willing to help you. And I will never ever do that. That isn't my blog or my advocacy. I actually want a closer, more helpful and nicer blogging community.

And thanks for your birthday greeting! THANK YOU SO MUCH! 

Don't worry! Nothing's going to change. .♥

And for her questions. I will try to share with you guys how I am coping, and my own personal opinion about it. Just a disclaimer, I am NOT an expert when it comes to relationship or anything in particular. The things I said and I will be saying are all based on how I see it, and how I experienced it.

"How you do it?! How are you coping?! Where did you start?! How?! How are you handling it?! How did you move on!? Are you over it?! " 

Oh dear! I don't actually have an idea on where to start. But, well I am not over him yet. I am still on the process but I know I'll get there. I hope I will. 

How I do it?! How am I handling it?! I really don't know. But I pray. Every time I breakdown, I pray. Every time I feel like I want to blame it all on my ex, I pray. I just pray. I guess that's what's keep me going. 

Where did you start?! I think starting to think of HOW to start is one of the hardest. I remember not feeling anything a few days after. I felt like nothing is wrong. It didn't sink in right away. I was just busy and my mind was off it. But when I started feeling it, when I started realizing that it is really over. That was when I broke down.

If you guys remember, that were the week that I wasn't posting anything.

That were the start where in I started starving myself, crying myself to sleep, and feeling nothing.  People might think its corny or not true, but once you broke up with someone you really love and someone you planned your forever with. It is really devastating. 

 I felt like I lost my only reason to wake up every morning. I felt like I am all alone. I felt terrible. 

How I am moving on!?  

I let go, and let God take over.

It is one of the hardest thing to do eh. To let go. I let go all our dreams and plans together, I let go of my feelings. And I let God take over. I let Him do whatever He wants. Cause I know He have some better plans for me.

And well, listen to yourself, to your body. If you feel hurt or if you feel angry, do not try to hide it. Cry if you have to. It will help. Embrace the pain. Do not pretend that you're not hurting or whatever. Just cry and of course, pray. 

That is what I do. I cry. I cry all the pain away. I cry the anger or the regrets. I cry it all away and it will really help. 

Do not forget that only you can help yourself. If you want to feel good, do not let what you feel or your past to hold you back. 

And SMILE. It is hard, especially when it still really hurts, but it will actually make you feel better. Try to look at everything in a more positive and lighter manner. :)

So, I think that is it! :) I can talk about love and relationships forever but I don't want to bore you guys already. hehe. 

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Pillow Time : Moving on.

For tonight, I will just share a short post I wrote 2 years ago. I will honestly say that I can't talk about it that much yet. Anyways, enjoy! ♥

DONT WORRY I'LL LET GO OF YOU WHEN ITS FINALLY TIME FOR YOU TO GO...

sometimes i think i can let go of things that easy..mnsan gnun e.. prng feeling m kering keri m lng ilet go yun mga bagay pag kelngn n tlga mag let go.. pro i realized na theres no easy way to let go of something.. lalo na to let go of things that you know will never happen again.. bakt kya gnun kahirap mag let go noh?!? even though sa simula plng alam m na lahat ng bagay nmn n yun wont stay forever.. na ddating dn you time n u have to give them up.. na everything has its ends...its funny.. because even though , from the start, you know theyre not yours.. you still hold on because akala m theyre the only reason why youre alive...pro after they go.. after you let them go.. you feel numb.. yung tipong iniiyak m lahat ng liquid s ktwan mo.. sana nkta nla un mga luhang yun.. ksi those tears speaks everythng you reall feel inside... na even your smile cant cover up the pain.... pero as time goes by.. you really need to move on.. to move forward..you'll realize na dapat..dapat n tlga tigilan na.. yung tipong ikw n mismo mgssbi sa srili mo to STOP.. :).. and youll feel good.. lalo n pg iicpn m na you'll get over him someday.. its all worth it ksi youve learned a lot form it.. masaya to pick up those pieces one by one.. knowing na mabubuo ka rn ult.. and nkkatuwa na nakakatwa nlng balikan laht.. ksi finally masasbi mo na youre finally out of his shadow.. na finally youre over him. :) and now alam m ng you can stand beside him without wanting to hold his hand..and you can talk to him without wanting him to say the things you wanna hear... :) ready k na.. and you know that soon you will fall in love again.. you know that you will.. and you CAN. :) finally youre ready.. ready to give.. and to love AGAIN.. :))

Pillow Time : Insecurities

HEY HEY! :) Last Friday I wasn't able to write a pillow time post. But now, it's back! And today I have decided to talk about "INSECURITIES."[ obviously cause that's the title. :P ] 

Insecurity = Self- Doubt.

I think all of us have insecurities, in one way or another. I myself have TONS on them.

I am not the normal, petite Filipina girl. I have a bigger built. I am over weight. 

I do not have a perfect skin. I do have a lot of crazy things on my skin. I have scars, acne and stretch marks. I have a dark skin. I have a big nose, a wide forehead and unruly eye brows. I have tons of imperfections. And yes, sometimes I feel bad about myself. Sometimes I cry because other people don't accept me for who I am. 

But I have learned that I have to accept myself first before other people accept me.

I have a lot of bad experiences with it comes to my imperfections. People judged me because of how I look. In this cruel world, people look on the outside rather than looking on the inside. It's sad. But that's reality. I guess.

I have been bullied a lot of times. People treated me differently. But those, I think are making me stronger.

Growing up. I really had a hard time loving myself. I push people away because I don't think I'm enough. 

I pulled myself down. I let people affect me. I let them hurt me. I let them get into me. I allowed them to push me down. 

BUT not anymore. I can safely say that I love myself more now. 

I am learning to accept myself more. I believe in myself.And I know that what's important is not my weight or skin or face.

 What's inside your heart is more important. 

I still cry. I still feel bad, sometimes. But what keeps me going is of course, my God.

Prayers works wonders.I gain my confidence from Him. 

I know a lot of us have that. Insecurities or doubt. It's okay. But don't ever let people step down on you or push you down.

Take those as challenges. Challenges for you to make yourself better. 

NOT for other people. but for yourself. ♥

Do not let your insecurities eat you up. Remember, you're bigger than them. 

Just believe in yourself and continue being you. 

 

 

PILLOW TIME: Dear Haters...

For today's , Pillow Time. I would like to just talk to my dear HATERS. I know that they aren't worth my time, but I just want to feature them and dedicate one post to them. I think that's what they want e, ATTENTION. 

I already got more or less 10 hate mails. And for the record,  I am only new here. I have been blogging for almost 2 months only. I don't even have a "reputation" or a "name" yet. But still, I got haters. I feel stupid for not expecting this. I am NOT new to having "haters." Cause a few months back, even when I am not blogging yet. I got a hater.

Some of you might think that I am exaggerating or whatevs, NO. I just want to voice out what I really feel. I don't want to pretend that I am not mad or upset about it, cause I am. Well, I WAS. I just want to answer/ clear things up. And I will try my best to not talk about it anymore after this. 

 " Trying hard ka... Hindi naman maganda yun makeup mo. Cheap! "

[ You're a trying hard... Your makeup isn't pretty. Cheap! ]

The first mail I got is all about that phrase. Its funny cause I got it a few days after I started. I felt sad, honestly. But after awhile, I just laughed at it. 

Again, I never claimed that I am an expert. NOPE, I am not! I actually admitted that I don't know how to put an eye shadow properly yet. I am still learning.

And yes, I don't have the HIGH END brands just yet. Almost all my makeups are drugstore brands, so what?!  I buy the with my OWN allowance, not from your wallet. :)

" You're not pretty... Giveaway ka ng giveaway kasi walang nagtitiyaga sa blog mo... Cheap naman prizes mo..."

[ You're not pretty... You kept on hosting giveaways cause no one is interested in your blog... You're prizes are so cheap ]

YES. I hosted 2 small giveaway already. The last one is still on going by the way. :D 

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Well, yes. I am hosting giveaway to draw attention. Its kind of a tactic, especially when you're only starting. BUT you should post RELEVANT and INFORMATIVE posts too. I try my best to back those giveaway up with interesting posts. I do giveaways to attract readers. AND to share with others what I love. Believe it or not, I love giving gifts. And those cheap a*s prizes came from my heart, and from my own money. 

If you think it's easy to blog, sad to say it isn't. Just like any other business, kailangan mo mamuhunan. You need to spend time, MONEY and effort for your blog to grow. YES! You need to have money. You need to find the latest most effective products to review. You have to try out a few brands that people wants to see. Time and effort is also needed. You need to take pictures, EDIT them, contemplate and think of interesting topics. 

I am not pretty?! I didn't say I am. I know there are lots of bloggers who are prettier and sexier and more appealing than me. So what?! I don't want the physical appearance to interfere with what I want to do. I am grateful of what I have. I am trying to improve some of the things I can improve. But I appreciate who I am and what I have. Maybe its about time that YOU look into the mirror and try to improve yourself as well. Not only the physical traits, but also your behavior. :)  

" You just want sympathy... paawa masyado... "

I got the email saying that I only want sympathy when I posted about my break up. Isn't it funny?! hehe Why would I want sympathy from people who don't personally know me and the person involved?! And I talked about it ONCE! I don't know what to comment about this one. But I got 2 emails saying the same exact thing. Ewan ko! NAKAKALOKA! haha

KAWAWA NAMAN AKO! :P 

 There are a few more things that the hater/s said. But the other stuffs are just funny stuffs. :D 

" maitim, mataba, feelingera and few more HATE words. " 

BUT WHO CARES?! Not me!!! :)

What made me sad was the fact that people will spent a minute or two just to write a HATE message. There's so much hate in this world and even those little things of hatred don't help at all.Why don't you just support me?! Or if you guys really don't like me, then stop reading my posts. Or just keep it to yourself. 

Does it make you happy to hurt other people?! Is it fulfilling that you say bad things to other people?! 

I can't ever understand why people LOVE HATE.

I accept criticisms or suggestions or anything. BUT NOT HATE!

 You can tell me in a nicer, kinder way your thoughts. I am nice to people who are nice to me, but I am not perfect. I can say hurtful things as well, but I have learned not to. 

Siguro if I started a few months ago, and got these hate mails. Baka pinatulan kita/ kayo. :)  

But sorry, I have learned a lot already. I am now a strong believer of the saying,  

" ...those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. "

 I have learned to follow my heart and to do what I want to do without worrying what OTHER people might say. OTHER nga dba?! :D 

All I care about now, more than anything, is myself. I do and I'll still will the things that makes me happy. The things that makes my family, friends and NEW FRIENDS happy. I consider my followers, especially those who really read and supports my blog, my new friends. I want to communicate and talk to them all the time, cause I treat them as my friends. I love what I am doing now, and I am glad that a few people appreciates it. 

 So yeah, I don't want to make this a million words long. But I hope i delivered what I want to say properly. I don't want to sound rude or I don't want to get to the point that I need to name names or have a fight with any one. I will try my best to be patient. BUT I am not  robot. I have feelings too. :) 
 I don't know if these messages came from one or more than one person. I don't know if I know them personally or not.

 I want my blog to be a community of love, NOT hate. I want to be friends with everyone, if that's possible. :) 

THANKS SO MUCH to those who really supports me. I don't want to list all the names, but you know who you are. MY NEW FRIENDS. :) 

Those who comment, who message me that they support me, those who chats with me, to everyone who treats me as their friends as well. ♥

THANKS! A LOT! :) 

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PILLOW TIME: 24 Spend a moment every day thinking of someone to THANK

So, a month ago I started reading the book "Don't Sweat the Small stuff...and it's all small stuff" and I love it! I don't read a lot these past days but I read at least one chapter per night. A few weeks ago I got to read Chapter 24. And it's all about GRATITUDE. 

He mentioned there that for him ( the author, Mr. Richard Carlson ), gratitude and inner peace go hand in hand. And I agree. Being grateful makes you focus on the good things in life rather than the bad ones. This chapter is one of the few that I can really remember every day. Before, I say thank you for little things already. But I can express my gratefulness more now. And it's really a good feeling. 

I have a lot to be thankful for! 

My life, my health, my family and friends and for my God who gave me all of that! 

I am thankful for the people who smiled at me, for the guards who opened the door for me, for the waitress who gave us water, for the groomer who groomed my baby and a lot more! 

In spite of the few bad things that has happened and that's still happening, I still have a lot to be thankful for.

You all know how hard my break up is for me. BUT every time I think of people or things that I am thankful for.Just the thought of that makes me look into life in a brighter and  lighter way. 

And to quote, "If you wake up in the morning with gratitude on your mind, it's pretty difficult, in fact almost impossible, to feel anything but peace."

And of course, one of the many things that I am thankful for is this blog. YOU my followers, my new found friends. :) 

I have said this a lot already, but I feel really thankful for those few people who really supports me on this journey. [ journey talaga?! :D ]

This blog means a lot to me. It really is special. It has been a month, it ain't that long yet, BUT still. I feel happy whenever I do it. It's my sweet escape from reality, actually. :) 

I am really really thankful. And I hope you guys will still support me even without all the giveaways and what not. I also hope we can all be friends. :) 

So, to thank you guys for the support. I am hosting a little giveaway and you will find it.... NEXT. hehe 

THANKS SO MUCH GUYS!  ♥

PILLOW TIME: Heart to Heart ♥

WARNING: EMO POST! :D

Hey hey! :) I know I have been lacking posts this week. And I am sorry about that. I realized that I only have 2 blog posts before this! BAD! Anyways, I will make it up to you guys. I PROMISE! :) Next week, I will try my very best to get back to the usual. 

Thank you for those people who are still supporting me. ♥ For those who, religiously read my posts and for those people who really followed me not just for the sake of giveaways or whatever. :) THANKS! ♥

Anyways, I just want to explain a little bit and share what I have been going through. :) 

EHEM! hehe 

So, a few weeks ago me and my partner for 19 months broke up. Sad?! YES!

I was the one who broke up with him for a few reasons. We don't have the 'typical' relationship cause we weren't together physically. It was hard but we tried our best to work things out.  

I did it not because I want to. I did it because I knew we both need it. 

I knew that there's something wrong, something missing. And when I told him that, we both agree na may mali nga. 

The past few months was the hardest. Nagiging MAS mahirap sya as months went by. 

We almost split up a lot of time before that. Pero we keep on coming back kasi we still love each other. I thought love is enough. 

And then yun, the day came when I knew I needed to end it na. I knew I needed to do it. It took me a few weeks to really think about it and to gain the courage to do it.

Breaking up with someone is hard, but breaking up with someone you still love is harder.

*eeeh! naiiyak na ko....

That was my first serious relationship, ever. And I will admit, it is really devastating.

It is harder that I thought. And it gets harder each day.

He is a good guy! He is actually a great guy. *haaay! :(

I don't have anything against him. My time with him is by far the most amazing time of my life. Yes, I still love him. 

I saw this somewhere, and I totally agree.

So, yeah! It happened a few weeks ago, and I tried to escape it. I am so happy blogging that's why I kept myself super busy. It helped me a lot! Kasi diba when you're busy you forget your problems and stuffs. So, this blog temporarily took the pain away. That's why I love this blog and you guys, so much... AGAD AGAD! :) 

But the whole week, I felt down. I can't escape the pain. I can't seem to find the inspiration to write or do anything.

 People might find it mababaw, but that what I really felt. I don't want to write just for the sake of doing it. If I don't feel like sharing or doing anything, I won't come up with a good blog post. So, I listened to my body, to my mind. I rested for a few days, I cried and I did everything I need to do.

Sorry if this is super long. I just want to share this with you guys. 

I am okay! I am taking it one day at a time. Diba nga, Time heals EVERYTHING. 

I will get there. I know that! :) ♥ It isn't the end of the world. I will experience pain, I will still cry and still miss him. But sooner or later, I will be able to see the good side sa nangyari. :)

 Everything happens for a reason. ♥

And again, thank you so much for supporting me! It really means a lot to me! :) 

~chel

 

 

PILLOW TIME: Top 3 Pet Peeves

So, I wanted to post random stuffs in here. Personal stuffs, rants or just anything. :)

I can't think of any other name to call it or whatever, so we will call it PILLOW TIME FRIDAY! YEY!!! hehe

You can email me or FB me any suggestion or questions that you want me to answer or talk about on our Pillow Time Friday. And every last Friday of the month, I will pick one topic or question and talk about it! :) The sender of the topic that will be chosen will receive a little gift from me. ♥ Do you guys like the idea? :) [ comment down below! ]

So, anyways. For my first pillow time, I will talk about my top 3 PET PEEVES!
YES! There's a lot of petty stuffs that irritates me easily. I don't know why though!
But I am trying to be more patient and calmer now. hehe. OKAY! So, here are my Top 3! :)

1] Girls who have BRIGHT eyeshadow with BRIGHT lipstick. And girls who wear BLUSH, a little too much...

Isn't it sexy? LOL
I have seen TONS of girls who wears blue FLAT blue eyeshadow, super mega blush and a bright red orange lipstick. And it just irritates me. I am not an expert or anything. BUT come on! Before going out of your house, make sure to check yourself first in the mirror. Look if you put a little too much blush or eye shadow. Check if your lipstick is a bit too much or whatever. Just make sure that you look normal. 


2] People who loves cutting into the line... [ sumingit ] 

You will experience this on LRT or MRT most of the time. People who can't wait for their turn! I always experience this on LRT. And graaabeee lagi akong napapaaway! Those people that even if it isn't too crowded will cut you in or push you for them to get inside. NAKAKALOKA! I really really hate it when people do that. AAH! Just thinking about makes me mad! hehe

3] People who bumps at you because they're not looking, and not saying sorry...


Every time we are at the mall, especially when there's a lot of people in the mall, I always experience this. And I swear, nataas agad presyon ko! hehe

There was this time when we were walking, and then there's this group of girls who accidentally bumped my shoulder because they're talking and laughing... nang hindi nakatingin sa dinadaanan nila! And then nag-OUCH ako then I blurted, SORRY AH! 

And then the girl even looked at me from head to toe. THE NERVE dba?!!! So, I also looked at her [ with matching tass ng kilay ] Then girl number 2 said sorry and pulled her friend.  I said, "Fine. But make sure next time tumingin kayo sa dinadaanan nyo ah." Then me and my friend left. 

I am not mean! Believe me, I'm nice! hehe But once you showed me a bad side of you, ay! Better make sure that you're ready for what I can do. I am nice to those people who are nice to me. :) 


SO, that's my top 3 pet peeves. I have more though. hehe. But yeah, those are the top 3 that makes my blood boil. ( BOIL TALAGA?!?! hehe ) I hope you guys loved this random post. I hope you guys will suggest or ask me questions. :)  
I want to do this for us to get to know each other more. And for you guys to get to know me in a more personal level. :)

What are your pet peeves? Share it down below! ♥  

~chel

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